Time is Precious

Busy. A word that can describe my situation and my boyfriend. Actually it was quite funny, when I decided to being alone without any relationship in my last three years; I had a lot of free time that I spent with many things which useless. When I decided to have relationship with him, I did not have time for him. I feel tired. I hate myself. I hate all of the activity which I have. I wish I had one free day so I could have a rest in my boarding house. But actually all of my activities are positive. And I am sure those activities would not make me regret in the future. And I gave priority to my activity than him.

He was busy as me. I have asked him why he decided to join traditional dance club. I expect that he was like me, join a club because I like it. The fact was he just wants to have another activity. It was funny. When I want to be free from all of my activities, he occupied himself with joining traditional dance. And because our activity, we almost never see each other. It was saddened, when he wants to see me but I was busy. It was saddened, when we just can say we miss each other. It was saddened, when I just can saw him from the distance.

I remember our first met in a book store in Samarinda. An unexpected meeting. Actually it was short in time. He said two or three sentences and then gone. I remember that our glances met and I know that I was falling to him. Our first met resembles FTV. The difference was in FTV, a play director made the scenario. But, God made the scenario for us.

I still remember when he asked me to be his girlfriend. When I said ‘yes”, and just like that, we had a relationship. We saw the china paper lanterns were flying. They fly, bring our hope.

I feel sorry because I did not have a lot of time for him. He has already made many sacrifices for me. And I will sacrifice my time for him. There is no love without sacrifice. Time is precious.