Bad Day

I am in a café in front of Gor Segiri which play a song from the winner of X-Factor, the title is “Memilih Setia”. The song is mellow and it is suitable with my situation right now. It was a back breaking day. Why in 26th I got a bad luck? Whereas at 26th is a special day for us. The day when he said that he wants me to be his girlfriend.  I got bad luck in this afternoon. It was heavy rain. As usual, I go to Mozart to teach. For information, I am studying and also work in a music school in Samarinda. Today I decided to not bring my violin because it was rain. Well, on my way to Mozart Institute, suddenly my motorcycle was stopped. The gasoline was used up. The tank was empty. I was lucky because my motorcycle stopped in a place that near Mozart Institute. I parked my motorcycle and I left it and walk. I walked and open my social network and said “My gasoline was used up, hahaha”. The fact was I was sad and I never laugh.

When I was walking, there is a man who offers me lodging. At the beginning I think he is a man who uses his motorcycle as a public transport (ojek), or maybe he was just offers without any serious purpose. After for many times he offers me lodging, and I accepted because he said he would not do anything bad to me. And the fact is he was truly wants to help me. Maybe he feels pity because saw me walking alone when it was rainy. After I arrived and teaching was done, I walked again. This time nobody offers me lodging. The street which I trough this afternoon was dark. There is no light in the street.

And here I am. The café is playing a song by Sammy, ex-personnel of Kerispatih. I do not know the title but the song is mellow. And I do not know I am sitting in this place. I am ordering orange juice and write my journal. I want to cry, but I hold it. When I was writing my journal, my friend call me and asked “are you alright?” She is really kind. If she was a man, I really want to be her girlfriend. And I really thankful because of her, I do not really feel sad.  After the call, I drink my juice which I was order. It is sour same as my day.